Wow, As I sit here and think it’s hard to believe that it’s really been almost 3 weeks since I had my last smoke.

However if someone where to ask “was it easy” I would really lean towards the whole “Hello No” response.
The first night with no smoke was fine, I thought to myself “Man this is going to be a breeze”  I could not have been more wrong.

Somewhere on day 3 I began to shake like crazy and I was getting these mad chills through out my body. Then later that same night my skin began to crawl along with the shivers and the shaking.
I thought I was going crazy and it got so bad I burst into tears.
I knew it was my body saying “GIVE ME A SMOKE NOW” and it took everything in me not to grab one and take a puff.
I cried pretty much all night long, even posted an update on facebook.
I was so happy to see I had people come and support me and knowing they were there for me really helped me to stay focused and not pick one up.

I won’t lie I have been having terrible mood swings and I am unable to control them.
I’ve started to wonder if I should just close myself off for awhile til they pass but then when will I ever know if they are gone if I don’t see anyone right?
So those close to me are getting the brunt of it, and I am not sure if they realize how hard it can be for some people.

And on we go, 3 weeks this Sunday! I never thought I could do it but I am so glad to finally be saying I did.
Now staying on track will be the hardest but I am giving it 100%

Thanks again to all those who came to my aid when I was feeling down your support meant the world to me.